I don’t know why but….
Beside my friends I feel unfamiliar.
It not like,
They didn’t wiped my tears.
I am not alone,
I have so many friends.
Whenever I ask for help,
They lend a hand.
I know them for decade,
6 year, 2 years to at least .
Even the simple food with them…
Felt like feast.
Every moment I spend with them…
Was a bliss
But still in my heart…
I felt this feeling of tiss
It’s not like they are selfish,
Or don’t care.
I don’t know why but….
Beside my friends I feel unfamiliar.
They are still same,
But they are not….
I know them completely,
But I do not..
I see same face, same features,
They look familiar,
They talk same way, walk same way,
But they feel unfamiliar…
I know them, I know…
their family’s each and every member
Because I didn’t forget anything,
I still remember.
I remember them, their issues,
Even their deepest trauma.
I know their like, dislike,
And whether they like drama…
I was there when they needed,
I was there when their cried….
(They were there when I needed,
And they even tried.
But I wasn’t happy,
With their presence,
Because maybe,
I was expecting their absence.
And then I woke up…
From my false assuring dream.
Because out of 100,
Only 5 reached out listening my scream.
Then I realized….
they were there for formality of being there,
In the end of the day,
It was me and my sensitive heart there.
I don’t know why…
I wanted them there in my needs,
Because I always knew,
They just growing weeds.)
Friends from decade…
I know them,
Their features, their faces
And most of them.
I talk with them,
Whenever they reply.
They start conversations
And I am here to reply.
They talk with me,
And call me dear,
I know them,
But still feels unfamiliar.
Friends from 6 years,
I feel are just alright,
I knew by then,
Friendship may not be bright,
So I didn’t expected…
anything from them.
But my new friends,
Didn’t changed my role among them.
Again I was there…
Listening their traumas and healing,
I saw things thing being repeated,
I began steeling.
I stopped expecting,
I stopped starting chat,
But it made me the class ‘s strangest
Quite brat.
But it was not enough at all,
I Again found in the same hall,
Where I knew everyone,
Completely but also none at all.
And then…
there comes friends from 2years,
They brought hope,
Of wiping my tears.
And they were always with me,
But I felt empty from inside.
They did a lot for me,
But I didn’t knew how not to hide,
All the emotions,
Buried deep in my heart,
I had forgotten how express,
What felt my heart.
By the time….
I recovered my art of expression,
They had to had to leave,
Because it was the end of session.
And now I’m lost,
Because last session of school has ended,
And I have lost the help,
To feel, They had lended.
I don’t know why,
I felt unfamiliar despite knowing every of their secret,
Maybe I was getting them completely, and they weren’t even trying to get.
All of them given me silent respect,
With healer’s invisible crown,
But none of them tried to know,
That my heart was teary deep down,
I always had smile on face,
Motivating them to win every race,
But even I needed motivation,
Even I had some happy moments to chase.
I don’t know they were guilty,
Or my mood swings and hormones,
Which made me feel like,
All of them were each other’s clones.
I was most familiar of them,
I knew their every secret,
There’s nothing I don’t know about them,
I swear, I can bet.
